“sitting with the loss of the world requires a supple affective infrastructure, or a religion, which i reject, as i prefer not to be triangulated. if you’re a kind of thing whose lack of fit is endemic, if you sense that the bad life is impersonal and political while also overclose, it structures living as organically as anything about you, such as having had the trunk of your own body your whole life, stretching, bloating, twisting, holding you up, taking blows, manufacturing joys in the cracks, and being outlined by fabric that discloses so little that nakedness is always jolting.”—lauren berlant, “what is forgetting?” (via aimeelouisewall)
“is it because women want to make use of what is personal for them — to make it matter? to give the personal they’ve been confined and restricted to real currency and value?”—masha tupitsyn, "a sentimental education"
What’s missing? I catch a lot of shit because I don’t buy it. I felt like a broken record when I talked to anyone about teaching a 5/4 load. There goes the guy who teaches a 5/4 load haha, but I mean, really, it’s hilarious to remember the faces made by folks at a conference on labor when they were confronted by actual labor politics. But, like, that’s exactly what I think asymptomaticbanana was trying to get at. Something is missing. The vacuum is real. The vacuum of reality? Let’s not try to theorize our way out of everything. Forget the cul-de-sac—it looks more like a hula hoop to me.
i’m going to let most of this post go, but i will say: i love the idea of hula-hooping as a feminist method and if my face registered horror and sympathy when you told me about your teaching load it’s because that’s what i thought you wanted: affective labor definitely counts as “actual labor politics” at an explicitly queer and feminist conference and, come on, i saw you making a bunch of us put in way too much work at a party we were all too nice to call you on crashing.
“i like to work with what i’m given, and if there’s something a little troubling about a tune, i like to transform it.”—barbara browning, “having one’s cake and eating it too,” at the living labor conference