February 2012
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“…spaces are like a second skin that unfolds in the folds of the...”
– sara ahmed, queer phenomenology
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“…space itself is sensational…”
– sara ahmed, queer phenomenology
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other important things that happened today
i ran into a friend on the way out of therapy who has his appointment at the same time in the same building every week. we had a beer and discussed therapy, relationships, dissertations, and theory. so much potential here.
emailed with another friend who assured me i could come over, but she had been in bed all day, so maybe tomorrow. #bed.
got a totally random check for almost the exact...
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i wanted to see what would happen if i did this...
kj: i knew not to date both of my last two boyfriends and exactly why not to date them the day the relationships started. i can still feel the alarm bells. although first it was better than i imagined, and then it was worse.
my therapist: so you let your need for attachment override your judgment.
kj: yes.
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first i didn't understand, then i started laughing...
my therapist: so do you see yourself as someone who has social anxiety around men?
kj: social anxiety?
my therapist: yes.
kj: you mean, like, i'm afraid to talk to them?
like, i'm nervous to be around them?
my therapist: yes.
kj: no.
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“the possibility of knowing history…is thus also raised as a deeply ethical...”
– cathy caruth, unclaimed experience: trauma, narrative, and history
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“…the way in which one’s own trauma is tied up with the trauma of...”
– cathy caruth, unclaimed experience: trauma, narrative, and history
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“is the trauma the encounter with death, or the ongoing experience of having...”
– cathy caruth, unclaimed experience: trauma, narrative, and history
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“having moved from the traditional position of being solely generative entities...”
– kenneth goldsmith, uncreative writing: managing language in the digital age. i always only half-agree with this guy, but. actually i like how he says it even better here.
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“success lies in knowing what to include and—more importantly—what to...”
– kenneth goldsmith, uncreative writing: managing language in the digital age. his whole concept of “success” bugs me but whatever this is useful for other reasons.
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“the archive then is something that, through the cultural activity of history,...”
– carolyn steedman, dust: the archive and cultural memory
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“…the archiving impulse, the desire to collect objects not just to protect...”
– ann cvetkovich, an archive of feelings: trauma, sexuality, and lesbian public cultures
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“if archives allow documents to dwell, then they, too, are orientation devices,...”
– sara ahmed, queer phenomenology
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“it is thus, in this domiciliation, in this house arrest, that archives take...”
– jacques derrida, archive fever: a freudian impression
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things i want to confess on tumblr
i have anxiety about my class presentation. it requires less shorthand than when i talk about gender or sexuality, and i don’t usually put in the work, and then i cringe.
i always talk about my 13 years of catholic school, but i’m jewish. well, my dad is catholic. my mom is jewish. i had swastikas drawn on my book covers in grade school—by the guy i had a...
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“…in contrast to freud’s vision of the human being as a field of...”
– stanley cavell in the introduction to shoshana felman’s the scandal of the speaking body. it’s so touching—really touching, i love this—partly because it feels like privileged men struggling to get it.
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it's not about faking feelings so much as...
kj: you know who might be into our project? [redacted name.]
as: but he's against sad affects.
kj: but our project is about turning sad affects into joyous affects.
as: that's right!
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remember how feminism, not freud or anyone else,...
kj: who knew that feminist terror would make me happier than that relationship ever did.
as: i know. i feel like that's the secret the world has been keeping from us. the joy of terror.
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“if promising consists in the production of the expectation—of...”
– shoshana felman, the scandal of the speaking body
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fiona apple, if we kissed
this is my favorite...
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on reading "beside"
“beside is an interesting preposition also, because there’s nothing very dualistic about it; a number of elements may lie alongside one another, though not an infinity of them. beside permits a spacious agnosticism about several of the linear logics that enforce dualistic thinking: noncontradiction or the law of the excluded middle, cause versus effect, subject versus object. its...
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“how does one go about creating a “fake” feeling? and to what uses...”
– sianne ngai, ugly feelings
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“the omnipresence of power: not because it has the privilege of consolidating...”
– michel foucault, the history of sexuality, an introduction: volume I
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“in fact, the austinian performance of humorous slipping aims above all at...”
– shoshana felman on j.l. austin in the scandal of the speaking body. this is relevant to everything, including this, this, this, this, and this, which i still think was really hilarious of me.
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“the distinguishing feature of the austinian performance is not that it turns...”
– shoshana felman in the scandal of the speaking body on j.l. austin and my favorite kinds of performances, like SCUM, fiona apple smiling throughout the video of what might be a saddish song, etc.
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“felman continuously redescribes the task of her text throughout the writing of...”
– stanley cavell in the forward to shoshana felman’s super-important and well-quoted the scandal of the speaking body. endlessly redescribing is all i want to do in life and, mostly, is.
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“clio may have nothing to say, but she has everything to write.”
– carolyn steedman, dust: the archive and cultural history
(clio is the goddess of history. i love that her name means “to make famous” or “celebrate.” indeed.)
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“your silence will not protect you.”
– audre lorde, “the transformation of silence into language and action” in sister outsider: essays and speeches (via youthfulindiscretion) 