feminist hijacking, mania, and insufferability

(rgr-pop:karaj:categoryerror:karaj:pussy-strut)

Reading this while listening to “Runaway” on loop because of this. Is probably a bad idea. Feelings reblogging/insufferable* referential linking/etc.

*normally I would use the word “radical” but sometimes I can’t tell the difference because of #narcissism** maybe.

**From a post I drafted but never finished wherein I reflected on things that happened/I posted (passive/active?) in 2011:

Since I’m interested in an elevation of manic feminist oversharing, since I’m jealous of how other feminists perform/talk about radical narcissism on the internet so well, since my attempt at a narcissistic tag mostly documents me being snarky on the cusp of suicide, in the interest of learning how to talk about myself for feminist job interviews someday; I think it’s alright for me to tell you what my favorite posts of 2k11 were.

I got hung up when I remembered that last winter*** happened, when I remembered episodes different from the ones that I go through now.

***Included in that post I drafted that night that I barely remember (‘cause that’s how my life works) was this:

1.  I made this zine when they sent Four Loko to jail and I was in a really dark place (for reasons both independent of and inextricably linked to the banishment of Four Loko), a really dark place which was totally different from the dark place I was in last month, a dark place that I had to visit before I could come to grips with my manic disorder and the fact that I was put on this Earth to destroy all men, and so a place I will likely never visit again, even though I still have one Original Four Loko in the back of the fridge which I am saving for the worst day of my life****

2.  Like, ugh, fuck January and kill all men

3.  I also came across this wordle I did of My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. If I hadn’t, I might have wondered what last January was like in America.

****I try to use the “four loko on reserve for the worst day of my life” line as much as possible in social situations, especially when meeting new people

#feminist crying #feminist hijacking each other’s feelings to talk about our own feelings #which is sisterhood

*****I wrote a lot of things about how I never wrote about grieving even while I was grieving. Then I erased them.

i was just thinking about being in different dark places but it would def be #hijacking to talk about that here, and this post is too good, so another time. maybe more importantly: what would happen if we posted our drafts?