"to lie habitually, as a way of life, is to lose contact with the unconscious. it is like taking sleeping pills, which confer sleep but blot out dreaming. the unconscious wants the truth. It ceases to speak to those who want something else more than truth."

adrienne rich, “women and honor: some notes on lying,” on lies, secrets, and silence (via lexi-gold). you know what? when i said that that times boss was “very nice” it’s because i felt like i had to and i’ve been thinking since the summer about how i wish i had never felt the need to say that that job was “fun and interesting.”