when i’m not elated about the essay i’m writing or despairing about the essay i’m writing i am watching this katy perry video on repeat, which is sort of weird in that i was always like “i could give a shit about katy perry” and now all i want to do is listen to and watch katy perry, but that kind of vacillation is obviously my life m.o. this performance is just so amazing because it’s so bad. she looks miserable and sounds terrible for the first 3/4 of the song, which is kind of appropriate and great. also she’s so un-self-conscious, and i don’t mean the tight, see-through outfit, which i am always approving of even though this one is the worst, but her dance moves? it makes me appreciate them more. i just spent like 40 minutes trying to get the screengrab that captures the moment in the song when it changes to actual amazingness after “so you can keep the diamond ring” with “it don’t mean nothin’ anyway,” but it was hard, you guys. the look on her face only lasts for like a second and i have watched this like 400 times just for that moment and will probably keep watching it even though i’m not writing about it, i don’t write about music except on my tumblr.
DRAFT #5: i wish i would have posted this before, for livejournal reasons, i totally forgot about that great stage of my exams when i was watching katy perry on repeat. my exams were seriously one of the happiest times of my life; the three hours a day of lows were really low, but the highs were ecstatic.