pussy-strut:

this track is liable to become the “my boo” of this summer. there are a lot of contenders. there’s the ja rule remix of “me & u” even though i kinda ruined that for myself in late march. and a$ap rocky’s “goldie” and that DENA song. but it’s probably going to be xxplosive. i don’t live off mccarren park anymore. no one i love is in jail and no one i’m fucking has arraignments to attend. no supermodels have crapped in my bathroom. i haven’t been fired, and there haven’t been any deaths in my family. i don’t drink myself to sleep as much. i’m less happy, and it doesn’t matter, and i can’t account for it. i got an air conditioning unit but i still texted a dude i wanted to fuck hoping he’d install it for me. 

i hate the kind of white people who care about gangsta rap, but i don’t know if i hate them more or less than the kind of white people who care about dead prez or aesop rock or, god forbid, drake. i care about all of those things and i hate myself. “my boo” made me feel like i wanted to be desired. “xxplosive” makes me want to be mean and shake my ass. what i’m saying is that content and form don’t matter: i am projecting.

nate dogg, though. damn girl, you think you’re slick. sometimes i think, i wanna treat men the way rappers talk about treating bitches. then i think, that’s not right at all.

reblogging because i had feelings when “me & u” came on the mix the other night since i know p-s loves it. sometimes i go to her blog and watch the video, which i’m obviously into for the mirrors. but every time i watch it—every time, every time—i’m like, “cassie, why are you trying so hard? why are you putting in so much effort? who cares what he likes? whatever who is this guy shouldn’t he be doing the work?” i’ve had this mental conversation with cassie also, like, post-shower getting ready to go into the office and just sitting on my couch.

(also the first time i met anna and p-s explained the situation by saying “he likes drake” and made a face.) 

(also that time i texted her a situation and she just texted back “dump him.” #movement work. #feminist skillsharing.)