completely rewriting my dissertation proposal for the third time with the full knowledge that the structure i want to set up may not be at all workable; it’s definitely not standard. “you can try and convince me,” barbara said generously, and since this is the structure of my dreams, i’m going to try to make it work. still, i imagine myself doing complete overhauls several more times before i can settle into the formal constraints. at least i am writing about the deep pleasures and important politics of feminist time-wasting.