re: how i perform public hysterics without mascara

rgr-pop:

karaj:

lookerlooker:

avril lavigne’s new video has some great crying in it

i really needed a visual interlude. all of avril’s pouting in the mirror and for herself is sort of like my life, without the part where i’m reading. (although i made a pact to do my dissertation in bequeathed daytime pajamas.) i had this huge mirror in my office at teen vogue and whenever i’d get bored (always) i’d close the door and play with all of the makeup on my desk and look at myself; i guess that was actually part of my job. i don’t wear mascara, i get my lashes tinted, but i feel really compelled by how much drama avril squeezes out of a single makeup product. 

I’ve literally been working on a manifesto about this very thing today (which I know you all know), you’re always so helpful. Extra relevant: now that my feminist archiving photoseries is over (might make it into a book with writing/theory please tell me if you’re into that, I might redo it with real photos), all queued up for tomorrow is FEELINGS ABOUT FEMINIST CRYING/MASCARA PERFORMANCE/MOSTLY I JUST SPENT THE LAST SIX HOURS THINKING/WRITING ABOUT AMY WINEHOUSE TEARS BECAUSE DUH.

Also, YOU GET YOUR LASHES TINTED? WHAT? How do you perform public hysterics without mascara, tho?

no, i know, i guess this is today’s confession, made in the chris kraus-ian, possibly penitent, oprah sense. BUT HOW AM I GOING TO KNOW WHICH MASCARA TO USE WHEN I DON’T GET 20 FREE ONES SENT TO ME A DAY TO TRY ANYMORE? 100% yes to the feminist archiving photoseries i could not be more supportive. 

lookerlooker:

avril lavigne’s new video has some great crying in it

i really needed a visual interlude. all of avril’s pouting in the mirror and for herself is sort of like my life, without the part where i’m reading. (although i made a pact to do my dissertation in bequeathed daytime pajamas.) i had this huge mirror in my office at teen vogue and whenever i’d get bored (always) i’d close the door and play with all of the makeup on my desk and look at myself; i guess that was actually part of my job. i don’t wear mascara, i get my lashes tinted, but i feel really compelled by how much drama avril squeezes out of a single makeup product. 

(they-said-run-as-fast-as-you-can)

i woke up from a really long nap with “try and catch me now” in my head. it’s like my unconscious has just given up. i think it’s all of the resonances with “you lost me” and rearview mirrors and didn’t i just post something that had a lot to do with being let down? also everyone wants to talk about how they should’ve known. i have given a very impassioned speech about how the album that “white horse” is on is way more sophisticated than her next album, which i love but also sounds like it was made for the 8-year-olds that really are her audience (besides me); i think this is the most sophisticated song on it. i’ve never seen this video; i think when it came out i was busy being an adult. it’s kind of bad, but it’s kind of great. taylor crying after she hangs up the phone?! her hair looks really good. i just caught the line about being a dreamer; the accumulation of meaning is always satisfying. i love the dismissiveness of “that was a small town” and this song. 

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"somatic language speaks in metonymy…integrates mind and body…talks back…it is spoken in the second person and in the imperative; it implicates the viewer in performances where the body is shared…[it] begins with unbinding one’s mouth."

jane blocker, what the body cost: desire, history, and performance 

"you want hysteria? i’ll give you hysteria."

karen finley, a certain level of denial

WE WILL

“who will write the history of tears?”—roland barthes, a lover’s discourse: fragments 

on doing feelings as politics

rgr-pop:

I talk about crying a lot, but mostly I’m being illustrative. I’ve only cried maybe once in 2012, maybe.

Tonight I cried for real. I think my boyfriend threw away my Klonopin and the thought makes me want to die more than anything and the funniest part is that it’s much, much more difficult to die when your boyfriend throws your Klonopin away. It’s also much, much more difficult to live when your boyfriend throws your Klonopin away.

He is asleep. Should I kill him now or let him wake up and explain himself/prove that I actually just misplaced it?

important/me too. 

rgr-pop:

certifiedhottie:

queen eternal

Shelley Duvall Crying For Two Hours Straight is so important to feminist film theory/everything.

i can’t hold this back from tumblr any longer: when i was in college i dated one of stephen king’s sons and i called my parents to brag and got them both on the phone and, simultaneously, they were like: “does he look like stephen king?” whatever, mom and dad. for a month of my life i was thisclose to some of the most important #feminist crying and #feminist violence of the postmodern age. also, i would go buy books at barnes and noble and be like, my boyfriend’s dad’s face is on this bag. my mom told me when i was in buffalo “you said you broke up with him because he was competitive and immature.” what? it might be time for me to watch the shining again. 

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rgr-pop:

running mascara as stand-in for sadness and symbol of an unmakeupping/unmaking process as a deconstruction of beauty/fame/consumption in pop videos about Girls Who Got It All But Are Still Sad:

the Lucky story

i listen to this song all the time. all the time. let’s link. i have a whole crying archive, btw. also: she predicted the whole thing. 

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rgr-pop:

Things that are radical about this video:

• Stacey Dash
• Stacey Dash nips
• Stacey Dash 2003 tube dress nips
• that translucent Louis, I’d give anything for it
• that flopped open Louis, that perfect Louis flopped open like it’s the end of the world oh my god
• Kel Mitchell
• obvious thesis about yeezy subjectivities: mirrors as narcissistic self-consciousness
• and her refusal to look him in the eye
• and her frosted gloss
• and frosted shades
• and tinted windows
• and the way all of his songs are about material but are essentially objectless
• and basically everything

what do i have to do to make this not stop? 

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